&the greying vision

Tuesday, June 19, 2007 2:02 AM

after reading jiner's post, i got even more emo for goodness sake!
yes! she missed all her things!

i miss secondary school!
it was probably the time that i remember the most things!
and it might be the most relaxing moments i had.
i did cherish my sec5 life.
but did i cherish enough?!
if i did, would i still be missing the sec5 life?
i miss my sec two life.
it's just revovling about band, classmates, and basketballs.
i miss wearing Clementi Town Secondary School uniform.
i miss waking up at 615 in the morning,
dressed with my CTSS uniform,
carrying my quiksilver bag or my adidas sling bag,
chasing for the 650 am's train, from my house to commonwealth mrt.
that sounded weird, but i had always had this exercise to do every morning.
it's to run to the mrt station becos i'm late.
meeting my darlings at clementi's hawker which the guys name it as market.
for beehoon and ice milo or ice milk tea.
having some gossip session to perk ourselves up before heading to school.
i miss those life when i'm waking up at a bloody 9am when school starts at 730am
and buying some pocky strawberry to school
eating in school.
and crapping with richie, frederick and dixie.
i miss those time when me, yingqi, magdeline and meichan will follow the guys for basketball.
i miss those times when all four of us were so close.
those times when me, shermaine, joling, bianca will go out tgt, eat breakfast tgt, writing on our dairies.
writing our loves in that dairies.
that was when we were still innocent.
i miss sec one when the whole clique of us skipped dnt lessons and get reprimanded by mrs cheong.
when i'm learning percussions.
when i'm still a child.
i miss sec twowhen we were so close.
when i was still a junior in band and the seniors dote me alot.
when we will go ice skating on the last day of exams.
when there's a sars period and mrs cheong gave us alot of maths homework to do, and made us used finish dunno how many pad of fullscape and pens.
i miss sec three when i hang out with joling and clique.
when they tell me alot of stories and my mind is still clean.
when i get to know more people out of my own clique.
when i'm always late for school.
when CTSB had it's concert.
when i got my first part time job.
when i chiong for the ctsb concert.
when i'll go to school with jessica everymorning and meet youshun!
when there's like after-band lunching or dinner.
when i'm always hanging out with my band seniors.
when 3c2 was very united and made a brilliant success in our haunted house
i miss sec four when i met shermaine.
when i met my then-sec 5 seniors.
when there's night focus.
when we will go for night focus no matter how tired we are.
when we will go 7-11 and buy poiful jellybean and study and eat.
when we went up to the roof of the school to hang the flags.
when we were helping out alot in the school events.
when we will like go to holland every week ends to study for n levels.
when we are mugging for our social studies, merger and seperation.
when we will go out the day before english n level to watch movie.
when we cheered for the end of our n levels.
when we cheered for our brilliant results in n level.
i miss sec five when i sat beside yanlin.
when i crapped with yanlin and laughing at each other.
when yanlin gave me alot of advises.
LITTLE C!
and my holland study trips at coffee bean with my caramel frap.
when we will like crapping through my sec 5 life!
I SERIOUSLY MISS SEC 5!
i miss people calling 5c2.
sec 5na.
yes i miss that.
when the teachers were treating us like friends, more than students.
when the teachers will give us a lot of concer.
when the teachers will treat us like adults instead of a kid.
when the teachers treat us independently.
i miss it.
when the teachers will teach the 40 plus of us.
yet i'll stay behind and chit chat instead.
i miss that too!

i miss pioneer junior college too!
i miss it alot!
i regreted that i dint took it seriously!
i miss the fun dance when we will go "IT'S THE TIME TO PARTY!"
i miss the time when i go crazy with janice and seowhuan.
i miss crapping with lauren, yici, val, nasri, shazweehhhh, kanesh, darrell, tiff, and khalilah
the times when nathan 25 pae was so close!
when we will go out and crazy?!
i miss them alot!
i seriously regreted i dint complete my first three months.

sometimes i wonder, if i'm able to turn time back to when we wanted.
will things be the same?
if the things is the same, will the feeling be the same?
if the feelings is the same, will we cherish them?
human always take things for granted.
we will never learn how to cherish things when we own them.
but when it's lost.
we started to realise the importance of cherishing.
but when the same issue repeats?
will history repeats again?
will it or will not?
life will never be prefect.
i know how to cherish when it's got.
but what's left with is only memories.
but memories made me happier or sad?
i've said before,"what ever memories left behind, when you gets old, it will still be sweet memories."
but till now, i dun find some of it?!

this things shall end here.
it's time for me to do some reflection on my own doings.

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